Happy reflections

You'll find better love, strong as it ever was, deep as the river runs, warm as the morning sun.



Please remember me.

Love always, 

Mei Lin.

What I always do

...is the exam countdown!

There goes PSY249 today. I don't know if I did well (we'll have to see) but fingers crossed. One down, three more to go. I can do this. I'm not gonna give up. I'm almost near the finishing line.

Nearing the end

Officially forgot what I wanted to blog about. Anyway.

These two weeks are officially the "exam weeks". I'm so stressed out. My sleeping times are now 10am to 4pm everyday. It's crazy but it works better. Except sometimes I sleep all the way till 6pm because I'm too tired.

I really want to score so badly. I really want to graduate knowing I did my best. But day after day that dream seems to slowly edge away from me. The road gets tougher and I get weaker. With every subject I do, I try so hard. But to remember hundreds of studies and even more names of researchers... is definitely not easy. I wonder what I'll get out of this, at the end of university life. What will I be when I graduate? What if I don't score -and I can't get a job? What then?

Guess sometimes I worry a bit too much. But all these years I've never thought about the future, I've always taken things as they come. That explains all the breaks I've taken between secondary school, college and switching unis. But now, taking exams mark the end of my 2nd year in uni. If I don't start thinking about the future, I'm officially... for lack of better word, fucked. I'm about to enter my final year, and I don't even feel it. I mean, I do feel old occasionally because my circle of friends are now all younger than me (I'm used to being the youngest, everywhere I go.). But to think that this girl is going to be working, earning her own money and surviving on her own one day?

I cannot picture that at all.

Westlife Farewell Tour 2012

So I was there!

Fun fact! Did you know Westlife once filmed their DVD at the Sheffield Arena? It was the Number Ones Tour; and I remember playing that DVD over and over again back home. It was one of the best tours ever!

Imagine my excitement when I remembered that fact! It felt so familiar to be in the arena and then it just hit me -that's right, they filmed one of their tours here! :O *pukerainbows.jpeg

So I finally fulfilled another dream of mine -to see my childhood idols live in concert. I missed their Malaysian concert last year because I was already here, but I guess the universe has a way of telling you, "I've got something better planned out, relax."

 I guess the only setback was I did not have my co-fanatics with me. Grace (the girl who is also called Mei Lin), Athlynn, Vivien, Carmen, Ning Joe, Hui Ying, Evelyn, Yael and the rest of us who were total lunatics over Westlife back in CBM. Yes, I actually went alone. Partly because I couldn't risk waiting for anyone to make the decisions, partly because I found a single seat left on the 15th row from the front. And partly because going with anyone else wouldn't have been the same as going with you girls, so I'd rather just soak it in myself.

In the moments building up to them appearing on stage, my heart was beating so fast and I literally did not know what I was feeling. Then they appeared and I just started crying.

It was so unbelievable. 13 years of being crazy over the same people, and finally you get to see them in person. I looked at Shane (c'mon, we all have favourites!) and I was just like.. this is surreal.

Seeing them on tv screens and laptops simply cannot compare to seeing them live. They are so energetic, so engaging with the crowd. It was such a personal affair, and I enjoyed every moment of it.

...it's like you know so much about these people. How they wear the silliest costumes on stage, how they have quirky dance moves, how they like their cheeky hip-thrusting.

Shane and Nicky were always cracking jokes on stage, and thanking us fans for all the good times. They were the ones jumping around, running around. It surprises me to remember that they're almost 35!

Kian, in my opinion, was the biggest show off as he kept saying 14 years, 14 number one's, 54 million albums sold, yada yada yada. He repeated that over and over again throughout the night. But what can I say, he IS in the position to boast. They've done a great job.

Mark kept talking about how thankful he is for all of us, and reasons they're going their own ways, and how great their days of Westlife has been.

I remember this structure from the DVD. It is seriously one of the best parts of the night because they felt so close! At this point I tried waving like a crazy person but only Mark waved back :(

The night ended too soon, as I've said to everyone else. It ended too soon. I thought it was only halfway through but Kian started saying that we're coming to the end of the night. I was upset, but more in shock of what I just heard. Is that it? That's the farewell? I'll never have the chance to see them perform again?

Guess that's inevitable. But what's important is I've seen them, they did not disappoint, and I'm still one of their biggest fans.

Le gra go deo :)

Just a few things that made me smile

1. Mom said she was proud of me. *wipes tear. I was showing her this video of TFM which was included in a TV9 programme... it wasn't much but technically I was on TV for one second!

To be honest, I'm really glad that TFM is getting the attention it deserves around Malaysia. With all the political ongoings, it's nice to hear that a group of people are actually working on real changes and things that really matter. 

2. I was getting all confused about something I was studying about and emailed a lecturer about it. He replied back saying he was impressed about the amount of research I have done @.@ Haven't got praised in that way in such a long time but I was SO happy. Even though he didn't exactly answer my question. Lecturers always do that, don't they? Being all vague and stuff.

3. Westlife Farewell Tour 2012 - They're gonna be in Sheffield this Sunday and guess what?! I'm going to see them! Initially I had second thoughts, because I couldn't find someone to go with me. Then I realized, what the hell am I doing?! This is their last tour and we literally don't know if they're ever gonna have a reunion. I've been their biggest fan since I was 9 (that's 13 years ago!) and I've always wanted to see them live. They've been to Malaysia so many times when I was young and I've never been able to go. Last year they were at KL in October but here I was shivering away in Sheffield. Imagine how fate works. :( I decided to just snap up a nice seat, and who says I will be alone? There will be thousands of other Westlife fans with me, and that's already a plus point :')

4. Amsterdam after exams! I'm really excited to go on this trip as that marks my third European country in one year. To be honest it's the only thing that's keeping me sane through all the exam stress now. The thing is we keep talking about it while revising and the excitement just keeps bubbling over and over again. 

Need to get back to studying now. Wish me luck & hopefully I'll have more to be happy about in the coming weeks.